urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:yasdotcom yasdotcom yasdotcom 2009-03-17T21:25:13Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:yasdotcom:65737 2009-03-17T21:25:13Z 2009-03-17T21:25:13Z i am making myself in debt for books and cider. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:yasdotcom:61589 2009-02-19T00:14:36Z 2009-02-19T11:51:10Z i really like the king blues, bromheads jacket & jamie t. <br />i am making the best "indie scum" playlist ever.<br />i can't sleep. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:yasdotcom:57016 2009-01-27T12:42:22Z 2009-01-27T12:45:59Z i have no interest in it at all. i try so hard to convince myself, to be fair, rational and optimistic but i just feel dirty, disgusting, miserable, and nothing else. i don't want anything to do with you, i can't. <br />i really, really hate this, i can't figure out what's wrong with me. i feel so awful about how i behave. it feels as if i am the only person in the world who thinks like this: i accept it and i will stop trying to force myself to think otherwise. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:yasdotcom:56192 2009-01-25T15:05:50Z 2009-01-25T15:05:50Z i need something new. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:yasdotcom:55811 2009-01-22T19:36:06Z 2009-01-22T19:36:06Z i'm looking forward to this weekend. pay day, shopping, nice shifts, dinner on friday and town on saturday. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:yasdotcom:55663 2009-01-20T18:54:02Z 2009-01-20T18:54:02Z i feel a little bit sad today. and like, tired. even though i've had loads of sleep. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:yasdotcom:55086 2009-01-18T18:19:15Z 2009-01-18T18:19:15Z it's quite unnecessary to eat until you are in physical pain.<br />it's pretty disgusting really, but sometimes i literally cannot stop. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:yasdotcom:54939 2009-01-12T20:40:18Z 2009-01-12T20:41:01Z i want to, i need to, but i don't know where to begin. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:yasdotcom:54746 2009-01-01T12:30:28Z 2009-01-01T12:30:42Z i feel so queasy.<br />i don't think i can drink as many assorted alcopops in one night as i thought i could. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:yasdotcom:53725 2008-12-25T12:06:29Z 2008-12-25T12:06:29Z i'm having a very nice christmas.<br />job hunting starts tomorrow.<br />the wii fit is awesome. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:yasdotcom:53027 2008-09-01T21:44:30Z 2008-09-01T21:44:30Z tonight i was very happy. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:yasdotcom:52384 2008-09-01T10:23:24Z 2008-09-01T10:23:24Z 14th september is my last day :)<br />i'm excited and relieved, but a little bit sad at the thought of it too. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:yasdotcom:49188 2008-08-27T10:47:31Z 2008-08-27T10:49:28Z i am going to live almost exclusively in an assortment of check shirts this autumn, i've decided. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:yasdotcom:42892 2008-08-21T07:56:28Z 2008-08-21T07:56:28Z that head start hypotonic shit <b>works!</b> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:yasdotcom:41431 2008-08-19T20:58:07Z 2008-08-19T20:58:07Z the truth is, even if i do like you a bit, i like my life as it is.<br />i don't want to risk it, whichever way it might go.<br />i can't stand worrying all the time.<br />i'm probably getting ahead of myself & i feel bad for judging you but i just don't want any chance of me feeling that bad again.<br />i kind of think i'm ungrateful & uptight though urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:yasdotcom:38219 2008-08-16T21:45:05Z 2008-08-16T21:45:05Z i wish i was going to university this year. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:yasdotcom:35803 2008-08-13T18:47:44Z 2008-08-13T18:47:44Z i owe itunes about a quazillion pounds for fucking shit pop music.<br />i have no shame.<br />in abou half an hour i'll be like "why the fuck did i even want these?" urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:yasdotcom:35234 2008-08-08T22:07:46Z 2008-08-08T22:07:46Z i don't know why i miss it.<br />i always end up regretting it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:yasdotcom:34742 2008-08-05T10:22:26Z 2008-08-05T10:24:27Z i want a job & three dresses from topshop & new shoes & more books & a haircut & the good makeup that i've lost & a frappachino.<br />not even a light one. i want the proper sugary fatty concoction.<br />i am very, very tired this morning. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:yasdotcom:34544 2008-08-04T15:58:21Z 2008-08-27T11:48:22Z i'm making such an effort to not be bothered, but it's like you've set out to hurt her & discredit me for reasons we probably won't ever understand.<br />i wish i knew why you were doing this. when i hear you've been accusing me of saying these things and telling my friends this behind my back it makes me feel sick, as if i actually did do it, although i know i haven't.<br />where has all this nastiness come from, and why don't you have the guts to say any of it to my face? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:yasdotcom:33859 2008-08-04T12:53:25Z 2008-08-04T12:54:34Z i've found the last year really, really hard, but it has shown me what's important and what's not, who to trust, and who's worth the time and effort :)<br />i'm just sorry i caused so much drama figuring that out.<br />i enjoyed last night. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:yasdotcom:33678 2008-08-02T16:19:55Z 2008-08-02T16:19:55Z <b>i</b> let <b>you</b> down?! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:yasdotcom:32749 2008-07-31T08:36:28Z 2008-07-31T08:36:28Z i have realised that everytime i wake up before half nine, i wake up furiously unhappy with the world.<br />we have no peanut butter and this made me want to kill someone. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:yasdotcom:32331 2008-07-30T22:04:52Z 2008-07-30T22:04:52Z my laptop charger is playing up again.<br />i don't think my life could get any worse.<br />mind you batman was good. but i have eaten too many fig rolls today.<br />i want to get drunk. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:yasdotcom:31395 2008-07-28T09:39:26Z 2008-07-28T09:39:26Z i know it's not the biggest problem in the world but the fact i have absolutely no money for this month is really pissing me off.